All i want is for someone to hear me....

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Hmmm....i wonder a lot, inside my head, of things that r bad, of things that r good...but always inside my head....growing up speachless can damage a person right....i mean i have actually realized that i have never told anyone how i feel...to not hurt their feelings...but...was all i doing was hurting myself...idk...i've locked myself in this small town for the next four years... i could have moved but i was scared....i was scared to start over again but why i havent even started here....noone really knows who i am...i have noone to relate to and yet...i didnt want to move....the people who know jus a fraction of me...dont really get it.....everything they think....i think totally opposite of....i know there are people like me and i jus dont mean gay...but i've locked myself away from them....now all i want to do is scream at people...would i feel better if i took a stand for myself...would it be worth losing everything if i could jus say how i feel...idk...i never do...

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bulldyke's picture

i'm not sure really of what

i'm not sure really of what to say, but i did read this, and i do hear you, at least a bit. maybe not everything, but i know (for me) what it's like to be trapped in my head, with no way out.

Bulldyke
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