Another Step Further to Madness (You Wish)

underage_thinker's picture

Well, I've feeling an ebbing sense of longing, like a tidal wave of sorrow. But nothing seems to strike as opportunity, all I can do is hope that I can have the joy of your love. And faith that I can see the good in everyone. For peace, I'l give up my pounding heart. For love, I'll sprout it in the dark. I've always wanted someone to guide me and show me what I've been asking for. And now that I know what I've been wanting, I don't know how I'll get it. So, I have to have faith that you'll come save me. Hope that this will end. Love in eternal mindlessness, joy when all I want is there. Why was it always a question? The lens now is crystal clear. All I wanted when I saw myself was someone I never wanted to be. But now it seems that all I have are these hopes and dreams. Another step further to madness.

Well, without all the convoluted, badly-thought-out metaphors, it goes something like this:

I've been longing for something. It strikes me suddenly, and I know I just want you to tell me you love me. I want to know that you'll be good to me. If I could just stop thinking about you, I would. I didn't know what I wanted before, but now I know, and I want you guide me. I don't know why you would be with me, but it's the only thing I really want. Please come and rescue me from this longing. I need to have faith that you will. How could I never have known what I wanted? I can see now that I've always wanted you. Who I thought I was going to be was nothing like I wanted to be. I didn't know what it was that I wanted, but now that I know it's the only thing I know. It's just another step towards getting you. I know I can't, so I think I'm going mad. It just makes things harder.