She is everything to me, The unrequited dream,

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The song that no one sings,
The unattainable.
She's a myth that I have to believe in,
All I need to make it real is one more reason.
-Slipknot: Vermillion part 2

I see a habit there. I always start off with parts of songs.
I haven't been here in so long.
So far it seems everyone I knew is doing well.

Whats been happening in my life?

Fighting with my mum.
Still not out to my family.
Although the kids I know in town have dubbed me lesbian Kt.
Still working where I was; A year and 3 months now.
I'm in dance again.
And I've found a trainer I want to start riding with so I'm going to be doing that again too. [[Horses]]
Ran away and then came home because the option I was presented with wasn't worth running away.
Found the wrong girl once again.
Hmm.
Ah. A pregnancy scare; Which is quite uncalled for since I don't like boys.
Old habits die hard.

There's a new girl at work who I knew from school.
She's pregnant.. but she won't be for long.
It really upsets me actually but I know there isn't anything I could say to change her mind.

A little confusion in the romance department.
Its pretty much non-existent.
But my bestie has taken up kissing me goodbye when were alone.
I don't really mind, since I'm not crushing on her but I would like to know whats going on with that.
Its her idea that I'm sure of because I go to kiss her on the cheek and she moves her head so I end up kissing her lips instead.
She has a boyfran.
I wonder if thats considered cheating.

I'm still waiting for that one girl.
No one in particuler, you know what I mean though.
The one who wants a relationship etc. etc.

I just dyed my hair.
Its black again, I missed it.
I feel more like myself.
Why I did that at oh three in the morning I don't know.
Insomnia is a bitch.

I guess I'll go now I have to be up in a few hours and I've yet to go to sleep.

It feels good to get all that off my chest.

G'night dears.
-Kt.