I don't want to say this at all but I realy need some guidence and if I can't say it online then where? About an hour ago D (the bf) called & said bassicaly that he owed his grandmother & aunt over $500 by the end of the month or he might get kicked out which just totaly blew my mind. We talked forever about how to deal with it and eventualt decided to look for jobs all over town tomorrow and we would both work together to pay it off. I was more optamistic now because it seemed sort of more managable. So we started talking about other things and he brought up there four guys he knows a few streets away that are basicaly pimps and who pay like $800 an hour, and then he suggests that I work for them for a while to pay off my debt. At first I thought it was a joke so I haughed along wth him but he wouldn't let it go and I started to realise that he was actualy serious bout this. No matter how many times I said no he just didn't seem to get that I'm not some slut who'd willing to fuck some random guy on the off chance that he might get kicked out or that if he cared about me at all he would never ark me to do something like that. And he had the nerve to call ME selfish, what the fuck kind of twisted reasoning is that?! God, how did I not se what a fucking asshole he is? Iknow I should've, none of my friends like him and It's not like he's been a perfect angel until now but he's always been so nice to me that I just thought we could make it work. Let's consider my naivate concerning him gone. And I know that there' going to be at least one person on here who ill say I'm overreacting, that he probably was realy jost kidding, but trust me, he wasn't.
And now here's the part that's gonna make me sound stupid. Even being this mad at him, I still want to help him pay off the money because now that he got me involved, if he gets kicked out and I know there was something I could have done something about it I'll feel endlessly guilty that I didn't. I just don't know what I'm gonna do.
When I said I didn't know if I should help him I meant by GETTING A JOB.