I'm Not A Stalker!!!!!

underage_thinker's picture

Okay. My freak out's over. But now I have a bunch of homework that I need to do, as well as writing lyrics to this one ~amazing, if I may say so myself~ song that I wrote. It's proving difficult. So. After school today, my step-dad and I went to the music store thingy and picked up my guitar. It was getting a pickup on it. Now I can record with my acoustic! Yay! Then we went to radioshack to buy an adapter so I can plug it into my computer. I got home, tried my guitar with the amp (amazing), then plugged it into my computer. It didn't work. I tried it with my electric guitar, and that didn't work either. Damn. It's definitely the fault of the adapter (or of the creepy guy at radioshack with cigarette breath. ~time passes~ So we went to a different radioshack and a guy who actually knew what he was talking about helped us find the right adapter. now I'm actually starting to get stressed out because I have a helluva lot to do today. I have a lot of homework (none of which is due tomorrow, but I have do to it because I'm going to have NO time in which to do it tomorrrow). And I have to choose a song to sing at the music man auditions. Don't laugh - I honestly have nothing better to do with my time. And my mom wanted me to engage in some sort of extracurricular activity. Oh, and I didn't go to outlet last night, which was disappointing, but I did get a new dresser. It's black. My dad got it for me, and he thought it was going to be white, but he accidentally got the black one. I like black better anyway. So. I have no idea what to sing for the auditions..... I've been having major self-esteem issues lately because I was sick for a while and my throat died and now I can't sing. Or maybe I never could. Ugh. Well, I'm just not happy with myself all around. Remember STTB? Well, I was her a lot today, walking around campus and talking with her friends. She was wearing black sweatpants and a black sweatshirt. I'm not as obsessed as I was before, but I do like her..... L says that I'm slaking her. Just because I noticed that she didn't walk across the lawn in the same diagonal and that she didn't go into that room at the same time doesn't mean I'm stalking her...... I'm still kind of scared to talk to her. L says that her boyfriend is a rapist. He isn't, but apparently he got expelled from a private catholic school for falling off the bleachers, drunk, during a football game. Oh well. Also, I'm going to have to spend all of Sunday with her because we have a choir thing, and she's in another choir. If she's an alto, which I bet she is, we'll be together nearly the entire time...... Yikes. Oh yeah, the Red Sox have lost 2 games and won only one. They need to win 4 to get into the World Series. Things aren't going so well tonight. We'll see..... Okay, depressing update: the Red Sox lost 7-3....

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Dreaming_Nevermore's picture

...There is this THING on

...There is this THING on me. I only seem to make friends/want to make friends with anyone, they are into theater to some extent.

Which is fine.

Except that there is then this underlying tension because they can act, and thus are cast, and I can't, and thus am on crew. And we keep arguing over who has the harder part.

The stalking thing...I know what you mean. Last year, I had my crush's schedule memorized (but she didn't notice, because we're best friends and I had all of my friend's schedules memorized...). So annoying...but probably worse for you, because at least for me, no one knew and teased me. ^^

But...stalking's so fun...

Did L try to give you one of her pictures today after school? One of my friends and I ran into her in front of the admin building and she kept asking people to take one of her pictures because she didn't want them.

All they can tell you is what they have seen and heard, in their time in this world, a third of it spent in sleep and dreaming, another third of it spent in telling lies. - Ursala K. Le Guin

underage_thinker's picture

I think she did yesterday.

I think she did yesterday. Is it that oval one with the cool looking girl and weird black & white swirly patterns? It's cool, but what the hell am I supposed to do with it? build it a shrine and sacrifice slaughtered tofu and broccoli beasts???

Dreaming_Nevermore's picture

No, one of her school

No, one of her school pictures. The shrine comment made me giggle, though.

All they can tell you is what they have seen and heard, in their time in this world, a third of it spent in sleep and dreaming, another third of it spent in telling lies. - Ursala K. Le Guin

underage_thinker's picture

Oh, :-) I'd make a shrine to

Oh, :-) I'd make a shrine to that... Just kidding.