Inventory?

ReinbowGrl's picture

Tonight...hmm...Tonight is...
bleak,
blah,
empty,
consticted.
I can't breath...But that's the life of an asthmatic...I don't really want to do anything...I don't want to get out of bed. I don't want to eat. I don't want to talk, smile, read. But I'm not sure what to do with myself...So here I am.
I.
Need.
Her.
Yesterday, Today, more than usual. But she's pushing me out. Same old pattern. Maybe I should just set my watch to her breakdowns and move on. I'm always there for her and when I need her...she's...not here.
Funny.
Oh So.
Pathetically Funny.
How I talk about getting over her and moving on, to learn how to love somebody other than her...Because you and I both know that I can't. And of course, she knows it too...
Ewww.
Crotch Shot.
Ick Much?
That underwear add is really beginning to get to me...Think I could sue "International Jock" for turning me gay? Blue balls huh? What color would they be if I could punch the model in the balls? I'm feeling a bit violent tonight...It's too dark to go running.
I.
Get.
What.
I.
Want.
Always.
Except I've already had her and can't seem to get her back for the 35245348953457th time. I can suduce married men. But the one girl I love more than life...No deal.
Heroes
&
Theives.
Where's the piano?
Vanessa Carlton...New...Interesting maybe? I can't decide if I like this CD or not...maybe it'll grow on me.
Grl2Grl.
Burmudez Triangle.
I read Grl2Grl today, in about an hour. Burmudez Triangle is interesting...I'm coming to see that I use that word far too often. Interesting has become my synomyn for so many words.
She.
Said.
I.
Was.
Cute.
I'm not interested (AGAIN WITH THE I-WORD). So why did I smile like the fool I am and why do I want her to text me back so badly?
Cold:
Hands,
Nose,
Bed,
Heart,
Everything.
But.
Nothing that I could cure with tea...

Amy V. I...Now accepting lover applications....

If only it was that easy....

Comments

Icarus's picture

don't worry darling, to

don't worry darling,

to sound like a cliched motivational speaker, things will get better in the end.

These gots peanuts and soap in 'um!

-Ruby-'s picture

hmmm

"How I talk about getting over her and moving on, to learn how to love somebody other than her...Because you and I both know that I can't."

i know that feeling and I HATE THAT FEELING. so yucky... so sucky... but don't pity yourself. you deserve someone who will treat you right... and if she can't do that, she doesn't deserve you. honey, you're still in hi-skewl... and you're way too good to be shutting yourself down because of one girl (no matter how much u love her). keep urself open to acceping those lover applications... some good ones will come in eventually : )