its pointless i know... but i guess its all i got...

deepspace87's picture

have you ever had a really big crush on a friend...
a close friend...
a so very very straight friend...
and you knew that nothing would ever happen...
since she has a boyfriend..
and you guys are best friends...
and shes straight...
and doesnt agree with gays...
and she knew that you liked her...
and was willing to accept that and be ok with it...

but you kept being sweet to her constantly...
and being really nice...
and doing everything youd do to the person youd like to try to win them over...
even though you know nothing will happen...
but something in your mind says that if you do it enough she just MIGHT go gay for you....?

ever been there?

i know its a hopeless goal, but i just keep doing it because i just cant help it....

anyone ever done the same?

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underage_thinker's picture

Not quite, but pretty damn

Not quite, but pretty damn close. It sucks, I know

Gaby's picture

Totally..

Yep, in fact I´m livin that rite now... it sucks but it also feels good? Am I a total masokist for lovin to do that?

fox333's picture

Kind of, there was this

Kind of, there was this chick that i kinda used to like but she was a serial relationship person. She would date like three or five people at the same time. So I desided not to say anything becasue I am looking for a serious relationship. I don't want to be one of many to someone and I planned to tell her that I liked her when she came around. But she left my school and she died last year. And I ended up dating her ex boyfriend.

yesac's picture

I was in the exact same

I was in the exact same position as you a few months ago. ('cept she doesn't have a bf)
As a matter of fact, I now room with her (but not in the relationship way).
It's soo tough to get over it. You just wanna get over it as soon as possible, but it takes forever. You just keep thinking about her.

Dreaming_Nevermore's picture

Sort of, but the girl was bi

Sort of, but the girl was bi and had (has) a girlfriend who lives about at thousand miles away.

All they can tell you is what they have seen and heard, in their time in this world, a third of it spent in sleep and dreaming, another third of it spent in telling lies. - Ursala K. Le Guin

Arthur's picture

Not me, but a friend.

Actually my ex, but lets not go there.

She liked this chick, another friend of mine. And I don't know if it's that she kept at it, or that this person was already bi, but it worked for her. I for one hate false hope and I don't mean to put it on you, but there's always a chance. (Sometimes, like in my case, a snowball's chance in hell, but hey, chance is chance, I'll take a freezer with me. ;P )

"Losing my sight/Losing my mind/Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine/
Losing my sight/Losing my mind/Wish somebody would tell me I'm fine/
Nothing's alright/NOTHING is fine/I'm running and I'm crying."--Papa Roach, 'Last Resort'

moxie's picture

that is the exact same

that is the exact same situation i'm in right now. almost.

she's my best friend. she has a boyfriend. she's "straight" (but that might be debatable...maybe i'm too hopeful). and i like her. a lot. i'm pretty damn sure that she knows (if i'm reading the subtext correctly), but i can't be 100% certain. i know how you feel...does "totally utterly hopeless" ring a bell?

*hugs*

~Moxie

deepspace87's picture

god yea it rings a bell...

god yea it rings a bell... its just like... i know she wont go for me... but if i keep at it, then maybe just maybe she'll go gay for me... hopeless i kno...

Never be afraid to stand up for whats right. If you lose your values, you've lost yourself, so dont let someone change you into someone you arnt. Don't be afraid of the punishment, Rejoyce in the freedom that let to it.