heart beating fast,
so terrible scared.
"He can't hurt you."
How would they know?
Pushed up against his chest, his arms around me,
forming the barrier
between choas,and myself.
they talkabout me late at night,
when I'm either dancing,
or supossidly asleep.
How I'm not getting better,
I'm only getting worse.
Don't know if they're talking about
or me skipping math class all the time.
Myke won't let me go,
not that'd I want him to.
His lover Corne(y)
Looks down at me,
he can see my shoulders shaking,
see the tears on my face.
What he doesn't her ismy short gasps for breath.
He holds out his hand, as Myke let's me go.
Pulling me up, I look at him.
He's deaf, wouldn't understand me if I looked away.
"Corny, I'm sorry."
"It's okay, smile Jaize."
Can he see my eyes all hazy,
clearing from another attempt at death?
I slid back down to the floor.
He looks at me, I can feel his eyes staring at my cut up hands.
"I can't help you get better, if I don't understand."
He walks away.
Allowing me to return,
to listenign to my heart beat the unwanted blood
through my viens.
Maybe if I think about my heart stopping hard enough,
It'll actually happen.