I just want to get the hell out of here. Away from everything. Just gone. I just want, want want want. I want to be accepted. Totally, and without exception. I want people to accept me when I am happy, sad, angry, apathetic, spazzed-out, ecstatic, hyper-off-the-wall, ALL OF IT. I want everyone to accept me through all of it. Everyone. I want the world I want the whole world I want to lock it all up in my pocket It's MY bar of chocolate. Dammit.
I just can't take any of this anymore. I don't want to try. I don't give a shit about anything anymore. I want to find someone to tear into because I think it will make me feel something, if not better. I don't want anyone to call me today. I would tear up my best friend just to hear someone else feel this. But I wouldn't.
I love people too much, especially when they're still whole. So I leave well enough alone. But I think I will go buy one of those sodas in a glass bottle, just so I can throw it when I'm done. Just to hear it shatter. I want to drag the stoopidest guy I know to a fireworks factory and tell him to light his pants on fire and run through it.
Just to see it all come down.