Title says it all.
I haven't been posting on here very much. At all. So you all are a little behind on my life. I quit the band. Had my last show last night. Story behind that, but later. My relationship with C has grown in a different direction, and tonight we became just friends.
I loved C. I still do. But lately, my love has grown in the direction of best friend love. I withdrew being so lovey and kissy. She always wanted to kiss and I didn't and I took it as a sign. I realized that I think of her as more of a friend than I do a romantic partner. I think she started to pick up on it as she'd ask me along the lines of if there was anything wrong etc. At the times I didnt' know what to say. But tonight I did.
I made the mistake of not doing it in person. I felt bad. And not just about that, but about the whole thing. I just felt bad that I basically had to tell her I don't want to be her girlfriend anymore. The thing that was the saddest was when she said "it's not you're fault you don't love me like I love you." Oh, I just started to cry. And she was crying and I felt terrible. C's like bambi and her crying is so sad. I wished her a hug.
But we're ok. We've always known we'll be best friends. We still love eachother. Just me in a different sense. But C's adorable.
I have more news, but not now. More to come!