Yeah. And my chest aches. And I miss him. I feel weird and numb. It's so weird, having to adjust to the fact that someone's just...not there. Y'know? I started to talk to myself a little today while I was in my room, and whenever I did that before yesterday, I'd feel weird and shy whenever my cat was in the room, because he'd look at me in this cynical way like, "What the heck are you talking about?" Well, today when I did it, I started to feel self-conscious, and then I rememered that he wasn't there to hear me, anyway. And then I got depressed again.
My mom gave me a day off from school because of him. And I've just been sitting in my room all day, trying to focus on this homework assignment for social studies that was due today, but that I sort of got a reprieve on because I stayed home today. And it's not even close to being done, so I guess I should feel grateful that I got another day, but all I can do is hate the stupid assignment.
And I feel hurt. And numb. Yes, you can feel hurt and numb simultaneously.
Excuse me while I go and cry now.