I know I'm not up to date on this site. A lot of detail about my life is left out. Like how my mom was in the hospital again just two weeks ago after her visit a month before that. She has low immune system so whenever she breaks out in fever she has to go where she can fight it, because she can't do it on her own.
Well, it's been over a week without a fever. But tonight seems to be breaking that. She's got a 101 fever, and she feels terrible. She's rocking back and forth and moaning and she just looks weak and helpless. She doesn't talk to me when she gets like this, she just makes noises and doesn't answer me when I talk.
And what the hell. She hasn't gotten her lab results so we can take them to S's dad so he can help us with testing at USC. [Jesus CHRIST I hate it when I ask her a question, trying to help, and she doesn't fucking respond!]. Seriously, she needs help. Goddamnit. She doesn't do the shit to get the help. USC might solve some problems. They're far more advanced than the local hospital. The most they do is temporarily cure her.
I'm just... upset. She's upset. This is a never ending fucking loop