If I tell you I love you, can I keep you forever?

ReinbowGrl's picture

Did you ever realize that the more you want to feel something, anything strongly, the harder it is to feel anything? And the stronger you long to feel a certain way, the weaker the feeling is...

I forget who said it on here, but "She says I am strong. But she makes me weak."

If I love you's and biten lips that taste of tears, and anguished eyes pleading for forgiveness could fix broken hearts, well...you and I my dear, we'd be living happily ever after by now...

Tonight, I am wishing for the comfort of southern heat. I want to see my family down in California, in a small town where green is only a color you see on cars and not in trees that sourround you. I want to adventure in the oppresive heat, just to feel the relief of stepping into an air conditioned house.

I want to sit on street corners and kiss my lover while playing my guitar like I used to...oh so many years ago. Back before I knew pain and heartache. When the surprise of a first love caught me in it's grasp and refused to let me go.

But I got over her. And then over her and then onto you...You. Whom I cannot seem to get off my mind for mere minutes, much less get over you...

I miss sunshine. The warm kind. The sunshine of May, June, July, even August. Even though that 8th month always felt like a ticking clock. So many days until you have to return to your life.

But tonight...As I lay in my empty bed, wishing it was you I held instead of myself...Maybe you'll be thinking about me too...