so i got to go to work in 3 hrs. i'm not looking forward to it. lately i've been hating work, like the joy i once found in it has jus all been sucked out. idk why. & it doesnt help that people have noticed the change. i love the people interaction and my coworkers, but i feel that something is missing in my life. that now when i thought that submersing myself in work and jus trying to block out parts of my life, its catching up with me and i finally realized that...i'm not happy & i jus dont care as much now to make others happy.
as much as i dont want to admit it. my life has changed and it may have been for the worse. i want to be happy again. && i want to have something to live for. in this life that has manifested...all i feel is loneliness!