I'm so frustrated. This is insane.
I'm not used to feeling so intently about someone, especially for so long. What I dont' understand, is that around guys, I'm perfect, completely charming. I know how to win them over. But with you, I have no clue. And it's sad, because you're the only one who's ever meant something to me.
Forget all the boys that I've kissed, just to prove something to them, or maybe to myself. Forget all the times that I've danced with them right in front of you, hoping to force some glint of jealousy out of your eyes. Forget about all the guys I told you I thought were cute. Remember all the times I tell you I love you, remember the look in my eye.
I don't think I've ever looked at someone the way I look at you, and I don't think I could. You have something over me. I feel as if I am under your spell. I want nothing more than to be with you.
So, I'm going to tell you all this, welcome you into my shades of blue. I'm ready for you to know, but I don't know if you're ready to know.
And tonight's the night.