Dreams that lend them selves to reality...

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I had a dream that I was driving. The only car on a stretch of road that terrified me as a kid, the mountains that you hit when you enter California from Oregon.

And then the phone rings...And my dreams self doesn't even stop to wonder why the phone is ringing in the middle of my driving...

I'm just instantly awake, and I know it's her before I even answer. I am my own version of caller ID. And I am so so so glad it's her...But I have to play it cool and say hello with a simple "Hey".

I shouldn't say that I was instantly awake, but I functioned enough to find the phone on my floor. I was still half asleep throughout the entire conversation, but ahh...she makes me happy in a very simple way...

I'm not sure I should feel this way about my ex girlfriend...But I do...She thinks she is confused, but no one is more lost than I. She hurt me so badly once, broke my trust beyond anything that has ever happened to me. But for some reason it doesn't matter most days...Of course, I could trun my back on the whole history that her and I had, but that might just hurt worse than it does now...

And I miss my Bekka