Still Hurting

missundastood's picture

Its been 16 days since it all happened.
And it still hurts.
School is a living torture.
Seeing her is mentally upsetting.
How do make a person realise that u miss em so much,that u cry to urself in the night?
Does she know?
Can she notice the vacancy in my eyes?
Have i always looked so pale?
Its like,i just need a reason to start crying.ANYTHING about her,her gifted pen, her borrowed jumper, our pictures together , sets tears in my eyes.
Why cant i just be IMMUNE?!
Im sure she is.Im sure she doesnt care.she seems so happy.
I mean,why should she care?she has her huge cock boyfriend. why would she even NEED me?
Why do i still WANT her?i dunt NEED her. i really dont.
i mean,i have other chicks around me who can help me get over S.BUT i dunt wana use these pretty young ladies!its wrong,wrong,WRONG!i would never do matter in how much depression i sink into.because something tells me,its not gona work anyway.
which reminds me,my other friend D(who i hooked up looooonnggg tym bk),is hitting on me again.
recently,we were talking about some ramdom things on da fone,and suddenly she's like "i can satisfy u emotionally...(pause)...and physically too"
i freaked! im in such a state that i mentally FORGOT how to flirt back with an absolutely delicious chick. i remember changing the topic at that point.
im SUCH a loser.


jenevieve's picture

: : c o m p a s s i o n : :

16 days is nothing chick.
im at 9 months and counting.

im sure you'll pull through :)


My lesbianism is an act of Christian charity. All these women out there praying for a man, and i'm giving them my share. - RMB

Fiona Rosge's picture

Wow im sorry you guys. that

Wow im sorry you guys. that bombs, at least you HAVE someone to miss.
Come Josephine in my flying machine
Going up she goes up she goes
Balance yourself like a bird on a beam
In the air she goes there she goes
Up, up, a little bit higher
Oh, my, the moon is on fire