I bleed audio's picture

So it's been a week of firsts for me, well more like 2 weeks but who cares?

I've been dating James for coming on two weeks, we've been to the movies, out to lunch, and today he treated me to breakfast at a local restaurant. I've got to say these have been the best two weeks of my life, my first relationship with a guy and it's just going amazing.

Well today after we had breakfast we hung around Barnes n Noble for awhile talking about graphic novels, humorous books, movies, etc. Afterwards we headed back to my car and I had him listen to a song I thought was right up his alley. During the song my mind drifted towards what I really wanted to be doing, locking lips with him. However, I was really nervous about this, what if he pulled away? I mean I'd never done anything like this and he had mentioned that he'd gotten out of a long relationship, what if I just wasn't up to par?

He seemed to sense something was the matter and he asked me what was on my mind. I told him and he responded with a smirk on his face saying that he was wanting the same thing he just wasn't sure I wanted it. We both leaned in and I had my first kiss with a guy (20 years in the making) which quickly led to making out, etc...

Any questions of my sexuality went up in smoke with that, I mean I've found something here that I've never had before. It's like I'm finally on equal ground with someone. When he looks me in the eyes and puts his arm around my shoulder slightly playing with my hair, I just melt in my seat.

We're going to go see Ludo in concert next weekend which is just going to be an amazing evening :)


5thstory's picture

Wow. Wow. Wow. I can't say I

Wow. Wow. Wow. I can't say I am not a little jealous, but, above all, I'm happy for you! Things seem to be turning pretty well for you in this moment! Congrats!!

" . . . The sun does not shine upon this fair earth to meet frowning eyes, depend upon it." Charles Dickens

now what's picture


aww i'm so happy for you!
he sounds amazing, congratulations!

jeff's picture


Dating isn't adversarial, have to stop trying to guess what they want and do what you want. If they're not on the same page, they'll let you know. I mean, you're both gay guys... pretty easy to figure out. :-)

The real question is how much yadda yadda yadda are you burying in that one etc.


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