First off,thanks to the oasians who commented on my last journal.
I have been thinking some more about the whole sex,blowjobs etc..thing from my last journal.I think part of the reason I have been considering some sexy time with guys is that I am just tired of standing still.Of always being the single person in my group of friends.Everyone else has a boyfriend/girlfriend,had one,hooked up with someone at the weekend etc etc etc.I have had enough of being alone.Being boring,never any news or gossip.Basically the thing is I know I could have a boyfriend if I wanted one.The opportunity has presented itself often,to which I always refuse.
I know you are thinking so just come-out.Being open about my sexuality is of course the first step towards having a girlfriend.The thing is I just don't know where to start.I have told a few good friends already,but after that I'm not sure where to go from there.My college has a glbt group.Locating them and their meetings is proving quite the challenege though.
I didn't intend this entry to be all whingy,I think I am just frustrated with life in general at the moment.It all seems to just be standing still.I'm single and lonely,college work is a nightmare,and generally nothing seems to be working out.I know woe is me,I know I could have it way worse,but at the moment I think I'm just angsty and have enough of everything.
I'd like to just start everything over.