"I kissed a girl and I liked it"

the_loser's picture

That song is phenomenal: http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewProfile&friendI...

I'm planning on coming out to my friend. At least I hope, if I have enough courage. I'm going over to her house tonight and it should be the perfect oppurtunity. She's my best friend and I've known her for 10 years (our whole life basically) and I'm pretty sure she'll be okay about it. The only thing that bothers me is that once you tell someone close, they won't think about you the same way, usually anyways. It makes me sad to think that too. Once you tell someone they'll always look at you different. That's probably the main reason I've put this off for the past couple weeks. I had a dream the other night my best friend's [said friend above] friend was talking to her and said she was gay (she gives off a vibe to me at least in real life) and I was like NO WAY! and I jumped in and told them I was bi. It was weird. I take this as a sign, even though I don't believe in 'signs' but I do know when a good oppurtunity is in site, and I don't plan on passing it up!

I'm sorta hesitant on how I will tell her though. I can't say "I'm bi" or "I'm gay" because really I'm not sure and all I know for sure is that I'm not straight, which is kinda vague, but kinda gives you an idea, right? :/
I don't know, but I only feel the need to tell someone is because I like a girl. It's not my friend, luckily! I tend NOT to fall for friends and only have once but it wasn't a close friend but it sucks and I'm glad it's not a habit. Before when I didn't like anyone I never felt the need to tell anyone and that's how I planned it to be. But then this happened and it's crazy cause I've never seen myself in this position [liking someone this much] and well I guess I started wanting to tell people. Bah, it's so dumb. It was so much easier NOT liking my crush. I guess this would have happened sooner or later, so that's how I'll see it. I also guess I could wait a couple years to see how things turn out but I'm so tired of waiting, even though it's barely been a year since I recognized that I'm not straight, that I can't stand it, almost. It's almost unbearable, but really I would feel better about myself (hopefully) by telling someone. But I hope I can have the courage to tell my bestie tonight, WHOO! We'll see.

Wish me luck! And listen to that song on the link, it's really great =]

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wilma wonka's picture

GOOD LUCK

*hugs hugs and more hugs. i hope everything goes well, tell us how it goes!

"gay: cheerful and lighthearted; merry." - The American Heritage Dictionary.

the_loser's picture

thanks so much I need hugs!!

thanks so much I need hugs!!

RaspberriesAreFun's picture

Good luck and I hope it goes

Good luck and I hope it goes well. I wish I had the courage to come out to my roommate.

If male homosexuals are called "gay," then female homosexuals should be called "ecstatic." ~Shelly Roberts

dykehalo's picture

OMG i love Katy Perry.

OMG i love Katy Perry. Checked out the link now i'm addicted I've downloaded most of her songs now......... Thank you! Always searchin for new people and she's pretty good.. my sis agrees.
~~~Fear is only a verb if you let it be.. don't you dare let go of my hand~~~

runningupthefreeway's picture

ditto.

ditto.