i think that i am afraid of penis, which is why i would rahter be with a girl than a guy. for the first time in my whole life i watched porn with my friend a week or two ago and that just solidified my feelings for gilrs bc now im just afraid of penis. it just looks so weird and there is no way that i could ever stick it in my mouth. yuck. this is probably why after a few months w a guy and i felt that i was pressured to do more i would just break up with him bc no way i ever wanted to get physical with him. even in the future it just nevr seemed like something i wanted to do. i always found myself avoiding long intimate situations with guys. it never felt right. girls are just more beautiful in every single way.
im so ready for spring break.