I'd just like to say thanks to everyone that commented on my last journal entry.The support and advice was much appreciated.
I'm not really sure where I stand on the whole issue of my sexuality.I decided to stop looking for a label and just be as open as I can about whatever it is that I am.I'm not sure exactly how,but that pretty much led around to me coming-out to one of my friends,we'll call him James,today.I didn't really consiously decide that I would tell him today.I had been circling around it for a while with him,but he really didn't see it coming.He was completly suprised.He had asked me out a while ago and harboured a little not so secret crush for the last while on me.
Ultimatly I am glad I told him,but I also feel kind of down about it.Not because he took it badly or anything.Infact despite his suprise he was actually really supportive.I'm already out to a couple of friends,but he was the first one that seemed to actually understand how I feel,and we ended up talking about it for quite a while.I'm not sure exactly why I feel so down now though.
I had kind of a gay week last week,well I guess you could call it that.I went to see Tegan and Sara, and Uh Huh Her(Alice from the L Word band).Both gigs were basically big lez fests.Which actually felt really cool,like I fitted in or something.It's times like that that I feel ok with being gay.I feel like its all ok.But then the rest of the time I still kind of hate it.I wish I didn't because I know that means I hate me.
I've just read back through this entry and realised it probably makes me sound really whingy like I am pitying myself or something,which is not what I meant.I just needed to write this because its been a strange day/week and I needed to write it down and cleanse my mind a little.