I had a strange and sexy dream about a boy,yes people I said boy, from my college course, last night.I basically ended up giving him a blowjob and playing with his cock.I'm not really sure exactly what put this into my head,but it has left me a little distracted today.
Basically the guys name is Sean,we have been in the same class since last year.I have never been particularly friendly with him,and to be honest I don't really like him that much.My friend has a little crush on him,and has stated a few times that she would like to give him a blowjob.In class he usually sits with his friends a few seats across from myself and my friends.I don't really like him,but for some reason I always seem to notice who he is with,what he is doing etc..In class he has a tendancy to have his hand resting down his jeans.It is something myself and my friend have laughed about many times because it seems like such a little boy thing to do.
Well anyways,in my dream last night I was actually sitting beside him,and we were in class.He had his hand down his pants as usual,and then he started getting really awkward and trying to turn himself away from me.So I was like "Hey whats wrong?",and he kept telling me to ssshh.Then I started looking at his pants and I realised he had an erection.I found this funny.He was trying to hide it from the rest of the class,however the lecturer noticed and told us both to be quiet and ignore it.Then class was over and it was just the two of us left together in the room,and I just remember being really eager to play with his cock,which is what I ended up doing until I woke up.
It was a strange dream and now I'm all confused about what it means.I have spent a lot of time talking about blowjobs lately because one of my friends tends to give a lot of them to a lot of boys,and she really wants to give this boy one,so maybe it all got jumbled up in my head when I was sleeping.
But to be honest,lately I have been thinking a lot about boys and blowjobs and such things lately.I know that I like girls,that is a definite.I've had so many crushes on so many girls,I know I am sexually attracted to them and can completely fall in love with them.However,I don't think I have ever had a real crush on a guy.I have made up a few just to keep up with my friends when I was younger,but I have never had feelings for a guy like I have for a girl.However lately I am finding that I am a little bit curious about them sexually.I was talking to my friend the other day,and he was saying tecnically I will always be a virgin,and I was thinking sleeping with a guy might just be a life experience I want...in theory anyways.I have never been attracted to a guy enough to get to a point where I would be sleeping with him or anything else.But I have been thinking I would like to sleep with one and fool around with him,just to see what it's like.I guess I'd like a fuck buddy.In theory anyways.I'm not sure if I could actually carry through on it though.I was thinking about what it would be like to give my friend a blowjob the other day as we were sitting next to each other and I have to admit if I had to have done it there and then I would not have been able to.I just couldn't.Then I was thinking is that just because he is my friend and the thought of doing that with him is gross...or because even though he is my friend I can't really see him as good looking or attractive at all.Like there are guys who even though I am not attracted to them I can see that they are good looking or why people would find them good looking..but I don't really know.
Hmm I've begun to ramble off there a bit so I should probably end this.I have tried to give up the whole label thing and just go with whatever I want.Which is what I should really do.But instead I find myself sitting at home thinking about it,instead of actually doing anything.
Basically I need to do something.