*Sighs* my life is falling apart....

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Ok im pretty much screwed...im failing out of school and my life is falling apart right before my eyes, i CAN NOT drop out as i planned because Kryss will hunt my ass down and kick it to australia and my father will more than likely have me sitting in a little box 6 feet under the surface of the earth, or knowing him he will probably have me cremated and placed in a glass case that says "FAILURE IS NOT ACCEPTABLE!!!" Hes comming to South Dakota in May for my "supposed" graduation, ive GOT to tell him now that im not graduating that way he is as far away as possible so i dont end up dead at the end of this. Im pretty sure the only good things in my life right now are Kryss and the fact that my grandfather might lvie afterall which means I can now move back in with my grandmother and not have to move back to South Dakota when we go and visit Florida in two months, well whether my mother aproves of it or not I WILL BE GOING BACK!!! Kryss is expecting to see me and all my friends miss me ALOT, hell i miss them ALOT and i dont know what i was thinking when i moved up here in the first place...wait...oh yea i was getting away from the Drug addicted, abusive alchoholic asshole known as my father THATS what i was thinking maybe i shouldnt have thought.... maybe i should have ust put up with his shit till i was 18 that way i wouldnt be as miserable as i am now... i mean yea he was the biggest asshole in the world but hell hes still MY DAD i still love him and all i just wish he wasnt the way he is but hey there is nothing i can do about that, hes on some meds now and is alot calmer than he used to be he doesnt yell at me when we talk or anything like that and when i was FORCED to go and spend Thanksgiving with him he was actually a nice guy, accept on the last day...he wouldnt take his meds that day and basically reverted back to his old self until it was time for me to catch my bus and go back to South Dakota, i kept thinking he was goignt o knock me unconcious and make me stay with him i was scared shitless it was NOT cool, but my Papa(grandfather) kept him in line and my Nana(grandmother) did too, i KNOW for a fact that they wont put up with his shit, Papa might be old but will kick my dads ass should he need to. *Sighs*

Things with Kryss are progressing very well, last night we actually had a conversation about "What we were." well not really a convo it was more along the lines of me asking and her going "Im not sure, im scared to be more than friends even though i WANT to be more than friends." Shes an amazing person (I cant really use woman or girl because she refers to herself as gender neutral.) Shes been through some tough shit too, her step-dad is like my dad so we both know what its like accept...shes had some stuff done to her that i wont mention because i wouldnt want to betray her trust, the LAST thing i want to do is lose her by saying something stupid. She really means alot to me and i dont know what i would do if i lost her, yea we arent dating yet but still she is still amazing and basically has my heart. Last night we were up till like 2AM just talking on the computer (seeing as my cell phone has no money on it and i couldnt talk to her there...) Meeting her is going to be the best thing to happen....i hope, im scared to see her but i guess its normal to be nervous when meeting your crush and talking to them in person.

Well i best get going before my teacher reads what im writting and runs to my mother -_-.......