It’s late so I’ll try to make it simple, despite my thinking tendencies.
I’m obviously attracted to one of my guy friends but I know for a fact that he’s not attracted to me. I’ve found this out through several obvious methods that involve communication not only with him, but others.
The problem is not being attracted to him, it’s why I’m attracted to him. I’ve apparently tricked myself into believing that the constant episodes in which he confides his inner self to me is an act of something more than just a general intimacy. Confiding in another person can equal intimacy but the intimacy that I receive from him is not in any way the type of intimacy I’ve been feeling. The love I feel from him isn’t the love that he is giving.
So my question is, how do I help myself and him at the same time? I cannot just leave him, our friendship is special, but in no way is it on a gay level. I know that he is straight, he is in a relationship with a girl right now and I don’t want to hear counter arguments about how he might be gay. He’s not. I know. It’s just really hard for me to understand him in the way that he’s really coming at me.
I think this is a hard and very debatable subject. I hope for all sorts of responses, leave no thought unwritten. I seek all advice. I said I’d try to keep it simple, forgive me if I didn’t. I can at least make it short.