wow. religion.

the_loser's picture

Today my lit. class got into another discussion about religion. We get into the best conversations in that class -____-. At first the teacher was talking about how Marxism has to do with Animal Farm and everything and I guess he said something that got my friend riled up (he's kind of touchy on religion and thinks he's always right -_-) and so then my friend, we'll call him B, talked to the teacher about it during passing period (we have a block class with him so we stay in the same class) and then B was allowed to rant to the class when we all came back. Um, so the main reason I'm talking about this was because the main point of the discussion was homosexuality and gay marriage and then some other stuff I already forgot about. But B is pretty religious and I didn't know he was so into that stuff. It made me a little uneasy hearing him telling everyone how wrong it is and all this crap but then my other friend spoke up about it (being gay) and was defending it and so I was like Yeah! *high 5* It was cool. But at lunch my friends started talking about it and B was just going on about how 'A sin is a sin, and homosexuality is a sin. It's wrong. Blah blah blah blah!' Wow. It probably shouldn't change my mind but now I'm seriously considering on NOT telling my friends that I'm bi. Today just ruined it. I've been building my confidence, too. But I came up with hilarious scenarios during lunch while everyone was debating about religion and shit. In the heat of the discussion: B: "It's wrong. God created man and woman to be joined together and to...blah blah: me: "Hey guys, now seems like a good time to tell everyone I'm bi!" or just randomly blurting out "HEY! IM GAY!" to everyone sitting at the table and a couple times while reviewing these nice situations in my head I burst out laughing. Though no one was paying attention luckily, I'm sure it looked strange. *sigh*
I think soon I might tell my crush I like her. It's really been bugging me lately. Friday is the last day for our math group and then I we won't be forced to talk to each other, OH NO! Maybe it's better. But I seriously feel like telling SOMEONE! POOP!

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milee13's picture

One of the great things you

One of the great things you learn from coming out is who your true friends are. The ones that care will either learn to accept you or do so without issue--the ones that can't accept it aren't going to be worth hanging onto.

I lost more than a handful of very religious friends when I came out--in some cases it was because they flat out refused to accept me, and in others it was because I couldn't deal with their hypocrisy and feeling like they looked down on me. It's pretty give and take, I didn't want to lose them as friends but the more I evaluated my relationships with them the more I came to realize that surrounding myself with people like that wasn't helping me to better accept who I am or be more open about myself.

If you feel the need to tell someone then do it--just make sure, if you don't want a bunch of people knowing right now, that you tell someone you know that you can trust.

Good luck.

the_loser's picture

thanks!

thanks!

flatbreadass's picture

friends...

i have known my best friend for all my life, grew up together same school and all that. but only about a year ago we became really close. before that, i knew he was really religious and not up for hearing about homosexulaity. then, i came into his life and changed his mind. i was worried about him the most but i also knew he would be the only one to really understand, and even if he didnt i know hed pretend. so when i told him i liked girls along w guys he was very supportive an it made him realize that being gay has nothing to do w being a good friend bc im still the same person. some other friends know and they are cool too...

i hope you find at least one person like that bc its really comforting to kno you are accepted.

you will figure something out, good luck.

the_loser's picture

thank you =]

thank you =]