Broken

PurpleLioness's picture

So I accidentally cut myself really fucking bad at about 4:30 Thursday morning.

I showed my crush's mum because she's a nurse and she said I should have gotten stitches but I didn't want to get sent to aurora or wherever they would have sent me because it is obviously self inflicted and all my other scars.

So I didn't go to the doctor.
That was a really big run on sentence up there oh well.

Monday I have to go talk to a therapist or whatever because someone told my mum.

I was four days sober off weed and alcohol but I drank last night then smoked a bowel cause I was drunk enough to forget that I was supposed to have quit.

When I woke up this morning I felt normal and didn't want to cut or cry or have as many suicidal thoughts as I had the past four days.

So I don't know what that means but its not good.

Crush update..
I haven't really talked to her much today.
She was at driving class until four and now she's shopping with her mum I'm assuming.

I'm off.
I told my friend I'd come back to her house when I was done doing whatever I had to do today.

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jeff's picture

Hmm...

I don't think you can accidentally cut yourself... while in the midst of intentionally cutting yourself. It's not like this is some amazing skill you have or something.

Also, I can't take reading this anymore. You smoked a bowl. No e. Unless, of course, you actually smoked some sort of intestines or actual feces, perhaps. In which case, I suppose bowel is fine.

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whateversexual_llama's picture

well, jeff, we all know you

well, jeff, we all know you LOVE to smoke bowels in YOUR free time. =D

Be yourself. 'Cause if you're busy being somebody else, who's gonna be you?

jeff's picture

hmm...

You think this is some sort of rimming slang? Is that what you kids are up to?

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PurpleLioness's picture

Spelling is not my strong point

Thank you for correcting me though.
I asked a few people if that was how you spelled it and no one could tell.

Its what I get for hanging out with stoners.

Which I probably also spelled wrong.