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scandalboy's picture

i feel heaps better tonight, alot calmer. i've had a nice, hot shower, and to quote blanche dobois, "it calms my nerves".

im so whacked at the moment though. im through with trying to intellectualise my relationship and it's demise. tonight i realised that relationships are complex creatures, and it's too difficult trying to wrap your head around them. i also realised that i want a rebound guy, just someone to have some fun with. when i say rebound guy, i mean moreso a guy just to kick back with, mack out a bit... more like a step above friends but a step below fuck buddies. im needy, and im craving physical attention atm.

well, its 11.15pm and i have uni in the morning. good night.
x

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jeff's picture

Err...

above friendship and below fuck buddies = one night stand.

Relationships aren't necessarily complex. Thinking about them, trying to put them on a certain trajectory, and trying to figure out what went wrong... all that is complex and, thankfully, unnecessary. You met him, hit it off, and he wasn't able to stay in that relationship because of his issues. Where's the complexity? Pretty direct.

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scandalboy's picture

it feels complex in my mind.

it feels complex in my mind. ive been having trouble wrapping my head around it. im just a newbie to this all, i dont know how toexplain things properly.
and i dont see it at as one night stand.... they'd better be more frequent than that lol

jeff's picture

hehehe...

Then it just sounds like you don't like the term fuck buddies, but pretty much want that. :-)

Oh, I'm sure it's complex in your *mind.* I'm referring to the reality of the situation, though. :-)

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