i feel heaps better tonight, alot calmer. i've had a nice, hot shower, and to quote blanche dobois, "it calms my nerves".
im so whacked at the moment though. im through with trying to intellectualise my relationship and it's demise. tonight i realised that relationships are complex creatures, and it's too difficult trying to wrap your head around them. i also realised that i want a rebound guy, just someone to have some fun with. when i say rebound guy, i mean moreso a guy just to kick back with, mack out a bit... more like a step above friends but a step below fuck buddies. im needy, and im craving physical attention atm.
well, its 11.15pm and i have uni in the morning. good night.