I can't stop thinking about A. And I hate myself because of it.
I feel so empty. I just want him so bad, his kiss, his touch, his embrace... I want to hear his voice and I want to make him laugh...
I don't think I've obsessed over a boy this bad before. Not to the point of crying day after day and thinking about harming myself.
I want to run away. I want to forget everything. And sometimes, I want to go to sleep and never wake up.
I think I might tell him how I feel. How badly I want him and such. I just hope he doesn't ignore me.