Isomnia, yay!

FreeBreadHere's picture

Okay, I wrote something earlier today, well, yesterday, but I felt the need to write again, so here I am.. It's, like, 2:40 in the morning now and I'm not supposed to be on the computer now, but who cares? So, I'm just thinking about my fucked up family and all of their crap, I'm thinking about my fucked up friends and all of their crap, and I'm thinking about the way my cousin looked at me today... I know the last one made no sense, I'll explain.. First, my family. It's seriously falling apart. Okay, I was sort of molested by my aunt's husband and I told my mom, who told my grandmother, who told my aunt. She was all pissed off and said that I was making it up. I'm going to now ask the question: Why the fuck would I make that up? Anyway, she was like "oh, no, Benji would never do that, blah, blah, blah. Alicia's making that up." Fine, you think I'm making it up, whatever. Then, she told my grandmother that she doesn't want me living in the building I live in (Because we all live in the same building) and that my mother and I should move. Okay, how the fuck are you going to say that I should move when you're not the one paying the rent?! Okay, I can take that, but then she's like, "oh, alicia, you owe me an apology." For what?! Why the hell do I need to apologize to her? I don't even know.. So today, well yesterday, I saw my cousin for the first time in like, forever, and he just looks at me... Just looks at me with this look on his face. This look of pure disgust. I used to dress, I guess, moderately girly, but now, eh, not so much. So he's just standing there, looking at me and doesn't say a word. Then he tells my mom to buy my clothes! WTF!! My mom should buy my clothes?! Uh, no, sorry, I don't think so... I think I can buy my own clothes now. I mean, I think I'm big enough now. Nope, that will definitely NOT happen. Oh crap, I just got caught, crap, so I guess I'll write later...

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kumar2011's picture

oh wow

oh wow....yeah thats is freakin gay that they wouldnt believe something like that...why would sum1 jus make that up outta of nowhere....and ur cousin watever too him...u can dress how ever u want...im sorry but why do all of yall live in the same building...i think my family would have killed each other if we did...no i beleive we would....

Theres always something to laugh about in life...

Inkblot's picture

A question...

Did you just use 'gay' to mean 'stupid or bad'?

Do I shock you darling?
-Sally Bowles, Cabaret

music is life's picture

You're not alone...

You'e not alone on the whole messed up family thing, my mom's husband tried to do "inappropriate" things to me and I told my mom and she told me I didn't know what "real affection" was. Bullshit! It basically got so bad that I moved to my dads. I thought about writing a post about it but didn't think anyone would get it... I think in a situation like this you need to do whats best for yourself, like keep buying your own clothes, do whats going to make you happy.