I feel a little silly for asking these questions, but this is a blog thingy so, I suppose this is an appropriate place to post these burning questions I have for myself. Well, the questions are "who am I really?" and "why am I unable to understand myself?" These are questions that I've placed in the back of my mind and haven't attempted to answer. You see, I come up with little methods of dealing with life, in general, and I've noticed that these methods work, but not for very long.. I honestly feel like I'm an extremely odd person. I've lived my entire life, so far, with this belief held in my mind, and I suppose that is why I feel so odd. I haven't the slightest idea where this entry is going, by the way. Oh yeah, who am I? I'd like to know who I am, and I feel like I'm getting closer to answering it. But occasionally, I feel like I'm getting further and further away. I don't only want to know who I am, I have so many other questions that I've been literally driving myself crazy trying to answer. Like, why is it so hard for us to understand ourselves? We're capable of understanding so many things, but when it comes to understanding the only person who is around us twenty-four seven, us, we draw blanks. Why? Why is it that everything in life fits together, and we all realize this, to some extent, but none of us have found the "thing" which allows everything to fit together? Oh, sure, some people will call this thing, God, but deep down, none of us really know. Why are we afraid, and if some sort of survival instinct is the reason for fear, why do we need to survive? Why are people afraid of death? Or of the unknown, in general? I guess the fear of death comes from the fear of the unknown, and the fear of the unknown comes from the need to survive, but why do we need to survive? Every time I think I'm getting close to understanding these things, I find something else to question... But I suppose life wouldn't exist, as we know it, without questions. Well, that's all I have to say for now, so I guess I'll write later..