been awhile...like almost a year....

hellonwheels's picture

so, this has got to be my first entry on this site in about, oh, a year or so...most of the peeps i used to talk to are no longer on here, and other than maybe jeff and a few others, i doubt anybody here will remember me.

I am happy to say that the job at the bike shop is going well, and on days like today when my rear deerailleur snapped and destroyed my wheel, i am glad i get a deal on parts...lol. i need to be back in school tho.

so, that relationship w/ my psycho ex girl friend...who btw i never messed around w/, just made out and such...is now over...after we went to bc for her 19, she became a total bitch and i ended it.

so now i am back to being single, working hella bad hours for low pay...missing out on school and still not comfortable w/ who i am...fyi, the whole gay thing.

oh, my dad is so far gone now, i don't have to worry about coming out, since he wouldn't even know what it is....do yeah...tha's good and bad...he wants me to kill him...and i gotta admit it's tempting...i wouldn't really do it, but sometimes i just feel like shooting him...if you can unerstand that...

thank god my dad got rid of all the illegal guns too...holy shit it's a load off my shoulders...sorta. we sold about 200 grand worth of ammo the other day for 50k, which sucks, but i gave me sis the ok to sell it...she also sold a colt 45 w/o telling me...an $18 thousand dollar gun she sold for 450 bucks...damn i need to keep tabs on what she's sellin.

aside from becoming an arms dealer myself, having access to all the guns has totally increased my thoughts of suicide...i know someone as insane and paranoid as myself probably shouldn't be in possession of guns, but intstead i have hundreds, which will take a long time to sell.

anyway, what's up w/ you guys? any old oasis kids on here still?

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jeff's picture

Jeez...

What was the hold-up?

Gays having bad relationships with girls... go figure. :-)

What's the issue with being gay? You were visiting a lesbian relative or somesuch when you were in SF, no? So, seems like this battle is mainly internal. Just give in... you like the dick.

Good NRA message there. More guns makes you think of suicide more often?

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niks121997's picture

Hey

I remember you. :)

Your bit about guns and suicide made me think of an article I read in the New York Times (the Magazine section) this weekend about suicide and research on the topic.

"Life's under no obligation to give us what we expect. We take what we get and are thankful that it is no worse than it is."

"All that we see or seem is but a dream within a dream."

hellonwheels's picture

good to see somebody other

than a horny old man like jeff remembers me here...lol., man i need to start reading the ny times again, or at least the PI. i used to do it daily, but not so much anymore. so what have you been up to? pm me. or i will send a message your way.