Chad Allen: Interview

Even when your character in the movie is in the program, he found there was benefit to it. He was living a better life than before.

That's a great example. It would've been easy to say let's make an ex-gay ministry where these people aren't in touch with God and therefore bothing good happens in their lives as a result, but that's not true. I think knocking on the door of understanding and relationship with God… beauty comes of that.

Does that mean they're right on every count? Of course not. But that's a black and white world, you know? But goodness comes into Mark's life when he intends to have a relationship with God, and then our story, one of the fruits of that relationship is that he comes to really beautiful understanding of love, and the kind of love he wants in his life. He falls in love.

Not to mention: you, Robert Gant, and Judith Light. If those three names are involved, I'm pretty much on board anyway.

We appreciate that. Thank you. I love those people to death. I am such a fan…

Yeah, I got to see her do Wit in San Francisco, and she was so amazing.

And it's about time the rest of the world understands how amazing an actress she is. It's really beautiful. I love her performance in our film.

Since Oasis is a youth site, a lot of people are in the middle of this conversation, where they are struggling to resolve sexuality and spirituality. Do you have any advice along those lines?

Just to say that I understand and that it's painful. I know from first-hand experience how difficult it can be, and I wouldn't underestimate the power of those ideas that so many of us get brought up with, you know? I was infused with a very specific understanding of who and what God was and what his ideas were from the time I was a little boy growing up in the Catholic church.

And those old, sort of archaic ideas and little-boy versions still sort of resonated with me. It's a very powerful, powerful conversation. In growing up and sifting upon my growth and my relationship with God, it's often felt like 'two steps forward, one step back,' you know?

I was talking with someone the other night and said I still live as a person who understands the shadows of those doubts and fears inside of me, except that I'm not afraid to say that anymore because what's grown exponentially inside of me is a peace and understanding and a direct communication which allows me a sort-of understanding of the truth that wasn't there before for me.

My spiritual growth, when I look back upon the whole sort-of thing, looks like I continued to show up every single day for that conversation even when I did not know where it was going to lead and it's born really beautiful fruit.

And "Save Me" is out in September…

We're going to try to do more grassroots stuff because it is more of an art house release. We don't have big ad campaigns, but we really want to do everrything we can to get people out there so people that are intersted in this film's conversation and are interested in seeing it show up and show up when it opens and try and let theater owners know that this is a film they want to see, because they come and go so fast now.

Just the amount of DVDs I get to review is amazing, and there's a lot of good work being done, but it's like how do you get people to know about this and not just the big, obvious stuff…

It used to be that a small, independent movie could go in a theater and sit there for a while and build an audience. But it just isn't that way anymore, there's too many movies. If you don't have an opening weekend, you're gone and onto DVD, which is fine, but hope we have something for people to respond to and have a chance to see it in theaters.

And you're currently onstage now, as well.

Yeah, yeah, it's consumed my life.

Do you have a preference? Is theater the main thing, or is it movies?

I don't think there's a main thing necessarily… acting is the main thing and wherever it seems to lead me. Theater's always been a thing which for all intents and purposes saved my soul and made me the happiest when I was burnt out on film and TV, which I did a lot of growing up.

I had a theater company for years and I would kind of go back and forth in it between big film and TV projects. And it has been years, because Mythgarden took up all of my time and I hadn't been on stage. I was making "On The Other Hand, Death" and "Ice Blues" in November back in Vancouver and I said to one of the actors, I need to do a play again.

Then I get a phone call from the east coast asking would I do "Little Dog Laughed." So I did that and now I'm doing this, and I have a wonderful relationship with the director Robert Ruggiero who I'm working with on several other projects. It's really fun. I love being onstage again.

I was on a message board when you were in Little Dog Laughed and there were people pleading anyone to get the requisite cell phone picture of you naked onstage.

Are you serious?! (laughs)

But I believe they were unsuccessful, so I think you got through it.

I don't know about all that.