since when is this bad....

deepspace87's picture

So it took me forever to come out. It took me forever to be comfortable with who i am. I finally got there. I was totally happy with the person i was, being gay, it was great with me. I loved it all. I would never change it.
All my friends were fine with it. Even the ones i expected to freak out. They all accepted me and never had one problem with it. It was great. It made me feel even better about myself.
Then my best friends parents found out... And i knew they'd hate it if they ever did. I guess they had to find out sometime, i mean, come on, Im not THAT good at hiding it... Well now im barely allowed to see my best friend. My friend keeps getting talks about how they feel we shouldnt be this close of friends with such different viewpoints. Etc, etc etc...
And for some reason now i hate myself. Suddenly Im not happy anymore. I cant stand myself, or anything about myself. I wish i could change. Suddenly being a lesbian feels so bad. Since when is being gay such a bad thing? Why am i letting these people get to me so much? I was fine with myself. I for the first time actually loved my life. Now i hate it. Shit. Why now??

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Splash's picture

*massive e-hugs* I'm sorry

*massive e-hugs*

I'm sorry this is happening to you. It sounds like it really sucks.

I will offer the idea that the way your friend's parents feel isn't your fault, though I'm not going to pretend I know what you should do.

~~~ the voice of your eyes is deeper than all roses ~ e e cummings ~~~

Shura's picture

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*hugshold* :(

Maybe we can invent a time machine and speed things up 'till they're better again... <3

the ghost's picture

Awww I'm so sorry to hear

Awww I'm so sorry to hear that.Just try and stay positive and think of all the things you liked about you and your life before these people started making you feel bad about yourself,because you are still that person =] *hugs*

No one can make you feel inferior without your consent-Eleanor Roosevelt

fox333's picture

hug

i hope things get better.

'Oh Brave New World!'
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