So it took me forever to come out. It took me forever to be comfortable with who i am. I finally got there. I was totally happy with the person i was, being gay, it was great with me. I loved it all. I would never change it.
All my friends were fine with it. Even the ones i expected to freak out. They all accepted me and never had one problem with it. It was great. It made me feel even better about myself.
Then my best friends parents found out... And i knew they'd hate it if they ever did. I guess they had to find out sometime, i mean, come on, Im not THAT good at hiding it... Well now im barely allowed to see my best friend. My friend keeps getting talks about how they feel we shouldnt be this close of friends with such different viewpoints. Etc, etc etc...
And for some reason now i hate myself. Suddenly Im not happy anymore. I cant stand myself, or anything about myself. I wish i could change. Suddenly being a lesbian feels so bad. Since when is being gay such a bad thing? Why am i letting these people get to me so much? I was fine with myself. I for the first time actually loved my life. Now i hate it. Shit. Why now??