Recently, I've been drifting back to thoughts of previous relationships. Chalk it up to having too much summer free time. It's been almost a year since I've had a hand to hold, and I'm not going to lie and say I don't miss having five extra digits on hand (pun unfortunately not intended). That feeling of safety that comes with a lover is...wow. Fending for yourself, it's all too easy to feel vulnerable and at the whim of the world.
But maybe that feeling isn't so bad. Do you know that when exercising, muscles don't build when they're flexed, but when they're releasing? (10 points and a cookie if you do.) The heart conforms to this rule as well. I've been releasing for more than a few lunar cycles, and I know that all the while I'm getting tougher, wiser, more independent.
In the end, I'd rather be single and capable of achieving happiness on my own standards than dating all over the place and completely relying on others for a sense of well-being. Of course not all people who have partners are saps, but personally, if I had all that man-flesh, I think I would be. I just wouldn't be the same person I am today if dating came easy!