well... today, i finally got used to my schedule, when to stop at my locker, what teacher i should NOT ask for certain things, etc. (i still hate highschool!)
J texted me last night for no reason, and then when i responded she said "oh, nevermind, Sorry! i forgot what i was going to ask you :P"
i texted Maura,
"is there any possible way for my feelings for j to just.. die?"
"probably not. i still have feelings for people." - the second sentence is a shocker. she's in this beautiful relationship with freaking Romeo. No, Edward Cullen, minus the fangs.
"People i used to have feelings for." - she was trying to get around the subject.
"Joe. Even though he was an ass." - i hate joe.
"J was about the same..."
"You just have to find someone to mask those feelings with."
i think for about 5 minutes, then realize,
"i've been trying to hard to find someone. i tricked myself into falling for L even though i'm pretty sure i had no romantic feelings to begin with"
(I WANT SOMEONE!)
"be patient." - her best advice to me usually includes this.