Yay I'm finally sixteen today =]
Yesterday was one of the worst days of my life. My ex and me got in a huge fight. That's never happened before. We finally talked on the phone at like 5pm and worked it out. But I almost off'd myself before that. *sigh*. He was a douche. I was right. He was wrong. I still love the kid.
Everything was crap until then but after that I felt better. Then I ran for 45 minutes so I guess that lifted my spirits chemically. Then my best friend brought me flowers (sunflowers. my fave kind <3). That was really nice. Oh and i got a whammy bar for my guitar yesterday as an early birthday present. Sweet.
Today has been relaxing. My parents aren't home because they drove out to my sister's college to help her switch dorms. It's okay. I won't be alone for my whole birthday and they left me a bunch of notes. Still, I feel like I should be doing something. I guess I'll run and stuff. I dunnos.
The only bad thing is I guess I haven't eaten very well today because it's my birthday. And I've already had like 1,350 calories. And I have 1,500 a day. I guess I should make an exception for today. I just feel bad cause I've lost.. 11 pounds. I don't wanna take a step backward. Maybe I'll have like salad for dinner and then have my parents take me out for ice cream? I don't want my anorexia to come back. Gotta start this year off on the right foot. *sigh*
They upped my Accutane dosage and now I'm getting all those original side effects that had finally subsided all over agian. My lips are freakin dry, my skin won't take to makeup, and it's breaking me out. Oh well. I guess thats the price I'll pay for perfect skin in October and near perfect skin forever =] Yay.
I've been watching Will & Grace and I Love Lucy for like 2 hours. I have a life, hehe =]
So glad I got a lot of bad stuff out on the last day of being shitty 15 years old.