i'm completely sore all over, and it's totally worth it.
i just got home from kennywood. today i spent all day there, and was running around a lot. i saw J today, and broke down. i'm not sure if it was the shock of seeing her for the first time in three monts, or just the fact that she acted like i didn't exist. everything i had built up this summer came crumbling down when i saw her smile.
... i'm so pathetic. my crush is almost a year old and it hasn't gotten anywhere.
and, to make things better, my parents have been talking about my wedding since i got home. i don't even know why. i don't want to get married. and i hate dresses.
*sighs* i can't even get G to agree to hang out with me.
today with E & the cousins sucked. he didn't fking talk at all. and all he wanted to do was smoke. i felt uncomfortable.
so now i'm listening to Hawthorne Heights and missing Casey's voice on their new album.