Why do I find Avril Lavigne so hot? I don't know anyone else who agrees. Hmm. WTF there's a new Metallica album. When did this happen and how did I not hear about it?
Mainstream musical nonsense aside. First XC race today. My time was uh.. 31:05 (Really bad). My first mile time was 9min exactly so I guess my middle one was the worst. But I finished before 2 girls on my team so I was happy about that I guess. (Even though they are a frosh & a soph). The freshman girl was crying after. I actually before today found her to be the most rude and manner-less girl. But I guess seeing her defenseless side made me like her. I ran my cooldown with her and tried to comfort her and give her a self esteem boost and teach her to stay positive. I sounded like some crazy professer giving an excited lecture. But its like.. I know where she's coming from. Out of all the girls on the team I'm probably the most experienced in the thinking-you-suck/no-self-esteem field. So I can maybe help. It was weird though because she's very outgoing/stuck up. Blahh hard sport.
Boy got like.. 21 min. Fuck men.
I hope I can improve my time Wednesday! I'm gonna push myself as hard as I can.
I was a lot less nervous this time (though it wasn't a meet so there were a lot of girls. Wednesday its just our school and our "sister" (rival) school. Scary. Just.. standing on that start line and waiting for the gun makes me wanna cry. After about half a mile I can actually get into it and start loving it, even if I'm on the lower tier. And boy watching... Uh that ups the nervousness a lot. But I think I kept my nerves under control today, for the most part =].
I've had such a good friday & saturday =]
Friday it rained all day so (of course we always have practice anyway. no matter what. unless "houses are flying". haha)
But its good 'cause I like running in the rain. Before practice boy & I usually hang out at the track. I'm the only girl who really talks to the guys so I think I look like a whore. Its like the girls team. Then the JV guys team & me. Ekk oh well? =P
(OH! unrelated. gymnasts have nicee asses)
Anyway we spent really good quality time together. And I looked cute ^.^ It was really gooddd. It was raining. We got soaked. Somehow that adds a mood. I'm not sure how but it added a good mood. Then at practice I broke my mile time twice. after that it got progressively slower.
Then later that night at the game I braided my hair in two braids which he has never seen heh. And I hung out with boy most of the night. that was really good too. At one point we just stood there looking into each others eyes smiling for like a full minute. and then he slowly brushed a piece of hair out of my eye. like seriously WHAT IS THIS WHY ARE WE NOT TOGETHER. ha humm =]
I also met this really cute college girl who drove her little siblings there. She was russian & the accent was hottt . we had a lot in common so that was fun
got home late. went to bed. woke up at 530. left for the race at 630. (still so dark out >.<) talked to boy alittle bit but had to go warmup & stuff. after i ate the best apple i've ever had & got coffee (oh how I have missed you coffeee<3)
then I watched the guys finish. boy is fast. & sexy. sexysexysexysexy.
after he finished i said good job or whatever and high5ed him and he hi5ed me and interlocked his fingers with mine so we were sort of holding hands for a minute. i wasnt expecting it.
then we just kinda sat together and listened to bob marley (random).
I really want him back.
There's nothing I want more.
But it seems like working for that would be .. uh theres 2 words for it and i cant remember either. the opposite of beneficial i guess.
maybe i should be patience?