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Hey, I haven't been on in a while because I didn't have internet access all summer, which was awful beyond all awfulness. Anyways, I'm at college now. It's okay. I'm thinking about transfering because I'm not being challenged. A bout of depression is coming on, which sucks. I've heard that there are "pockets" of bigots here (Elmhurst) and while I haven't run into any of them myself I know people who have. The theater folks are great though and I've got a good group of friends and so if I do I'll have people to lean on. My roommate is nice but I was asked to leave the room earlier today by her and her boyfriend because they had to "talk"... that was awkward. I have a crush on this genderqueer girl/guy who lives down the hall from me--adorable, sweet, and on the rebound, but I'm to shy to say anything. I'm involved in some school groups United Church of Christ Student Fellowship, Straights and Gays for Equality (SAGE), Spiritual Life Council (SLC), Black Student Union (BSU). It's cool everyone is really nice, I've been skipping all the BSU meetings so far but I show up at the events, partly because I don't feel like going out on Sunday evenings and partly because I don't have any money to pay a membership fee. I'm working in the costume shop too, getting paid to do something I love. If it wasn't for those groups/people and theater I have no idea what I'd be doing right now. My mind would be more gone than it is right now.