So I've pretty much figured my sexuality out.. I'm a dyke. And I don't mind that label, personally I need to have things labeled and in place and set in stone for the most part. Well thats why figuring your sexuality out sucks balls because it's fluid. Anyways, so now I'm like confused with everything else. I know I kinda said I was going to join the swim team at school, but maybe basketball. I think I might go back to basketball this season because
- I enjoy basketball
- Theres a new coach that isn't a pedaphile
- If I quit bball for a year and go back to it, i'll probably be on JV as a junior and thats not cool
- I still have 2 more years to do swim team
I know I make things a bigger deal than they need to be, I wish I didn't though. I'll take forever to make a decision and then when I make it I think its the wrong one and I'll regret it. (I think too much into things)
Blah right now my heads saying basketball. Sara's on the swim team though and I won't be able to be with her as much though..... grr
I'm a student helper for a 5th grade teacher for one of my class periods and today I had to make a chart and I was sitting there and one of the students comes up to me and says, "I think you look better when you wear your hair down, I mean you're still pretty but I think you're prettier when you wear your hair down." I was like um Thank You? I wear my hair in a pony tail most of the time, I have side bangs and today I wore my hair in a messy bun and it looked cute. I'm too lazy to wear my hair down a lot. I can't just step out of the shower and be on my way, my hair would get super wavy.
But this girl reminds me of myself when I was in 5th grade. I've thought that from like the first day I was in there. Its just weird to be older and then be around younger kids and then think which kid you were. I was the "I play sports but am not a jock and have good grades but doesn't know everything and doesn't fit into a click but hangs out with everybody kid" or maybe thats me now?