There is a 19 yr old guy in my drama class who calls his boyfriend his partner.
That's cute, but also I find it a bit strange. I always thought 'partner' was a word reserved for middle aged lesbians and cowboys.
But then I thought, he used partners and gender unspecific words until we found out he was gay, so maybe it was one of those issues. Like he wasn't too keen on letting people know.
Then that made me start to analyse how 'gay' I am. Because since coming to university, I've made a point of not hiding who I am. A point to myself I mean - I'm not marching in there in a rainbow flag and hotpants. But if someone asks, I tell them. I talk about gay topics. I make gay jokes. It isn't as issue, but I enjoy talking about gay thingds, because it's part of who I am and I don't think I shouldn't NOT talk about it.
But am I drawing attention to myself and my gayness? I don't feel like I am, but I hope it isn't seen as that.
God, I really don't want to become desperate. Because everyone is living the lifestyle I want. I feel caged. I want to break free, to quote Freddie. I really want to break free.