Oh shitshitshit, what did I just do?

utter_insanity's picture

It's been a while since I've been on here, huh? It sucks. I missed all of you guys. :( But I'm back now, and I hope to come on here much more often now. :)

Umm...so I'm in high school now, and I kind of have a crush on a guy. Yeah. It's really weirding me out. I'm really not used to having a crush on someone who doesn't have boobs. >.< It's so WEIRD. But he's funny, and beautiful, and smart, and he has these amazing blue eyes. I knew him in elementary school, and we were friends then, but during middle school we sort of lost contact. Now we're going to the same high school and I have a crush on him. -_-

And I kind of just asked him out. O.O

I found him in the band room after school today and asked him if he wanted to go to the homecoming dance with me this Saturday. And then he told me that he's not going because there's a band performance on Saturday. (He's in band, in case that wasn't clear enough yet.) And then I said, "Oh. Okay." And then I walked away really fast.

God, my nerves feel like I stuck my finger in a light socket and got an electric shock. I've got this jittery, shocked feeling all over my body. It was so fucking nerve-wracking.

And now I don't know if I've completely screwed this up. Two people I know have told me that he probably likes me back, but I don't know. I'm so goddamn nervous and I don't know what he's gonna be like when we're at school tomorrow and I'M SO GODDAMN NERVOUS. I want to ask him if he wants to do something else instead, like go see a movie or something, but I don't know.

I'm probably going to ask him to a movie tomorrow. I think. God, I'm so neurotic right now. >.<


5thstory's picture

Guys are sooo nice. Don't

Guys are sooo nice. Don't freak out, and have a lot of fun!!!

" . . . The sun does not shine upon this fair earth to meet frowning eyes, depend upon it." Charles Dickens

fatefellshort's picture

I hope everything works out

I hope everything works out but go to homecoming anyway, with friends. Its fun =]

Fiona Rosge's picture

Ug...I wonder what causes

Ug...I wonder what causes that feeling? You all know what I'm talking about, the nerve racking just talked to my crush and ready to run directly into a glass wall or somthing feeling. Disgusting isn't it? And at the sametime it's one of the best feelings ever. I wish I had a crush on someone, I miss that feeling, Ha I wish people would stop having crushes on me..at least for a little while, I don't know how to deal with them. Sorry kinda got off bout myself there didn't I? sorry about that. Anyway not really sure what to say except I'm sure everything will work out fine and you won't regret it.
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