It's been a while since I've been on here, huh? It sucks. I missed all of you guys. :( But I'm back now, and I hope to come on here much more often now. :)
Umm...so I'm in high school now, and I kind of have a crush on a guy. Yeah. It's really weirding me out. I'm really not used to having a crush on someone who doesn't have boobs. >.< It's so WEIRD. But he's funny, and beautiful, and smart, and he has these amazing blue eyes. I knew him in elementary school, and we were friends then, but during middle school we sort of lost contact. Now we're going to the same high school and I have a crush on him. -_-
And I kind of just asked him out. O.O
I found him in the band room after school today and asked him if he wanted to go to the homecoming dance with me this Saturday. And then he told me that he's not going because there's a band performance on Saturday. (He's in band, in case that wasn't clear enough yet.) And then I said, "Oh. Okay." And then I walked away really fast.
God, my nerves feel like I stuck my finger in a light socket and got an electric shock. I've got this jittery, shocked feeling all over my body. It was so fucking nerve-wracking.
And now I don't know if I've completely screwed this up. Two people I know have told me that he probably likes me back, but I don't know. I'm so goddamn nervous and I don't know what he's gonna be like when we're at school tomorrow and I'M SO GODDAMN NERVOUS. I want to ask him if he wants to do something else instead, like go see a movie or something, but I don't know.
I'm probably going to ask him to a movie tomorrow. I think. God, I'm so neurotic right now. >.<