I feel

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I feel happy..... for the first time in a long while I feel happy. I feel content. After all the bullshit that has been going on at home for the last 5 or so years. All it took was My brother to be a good distance away and for us to move further away from him. The fact that he doesn't know where we live helps so much as well. I feel relieved. I don't feel stressed out. I can't even remember the last time I felt like this, all I know is it's been a very long time.

It's weird when I logged on here for the first time in over a year. I went to read my past journals and I came upon the one titled Home. I read it and honestly it almost made me tear up. It was like being back there. I remembered what I was going through and how bad it was then. I'm just glad it's not like that now. I hope that I never have to go through any of that or see my mom cry because of him.

I'm just happy that I now feel like in this new city. I can start over. That I can have a real life. I can get a job and make some new friends. Maybe join a gay group if there is one around here. That would be pretty awesome.