Its a boring day outside and im stuck here, thinking and thinking and going over all of the stuff in my past.
Im starting to wonder if coming out was the wrong thing to do?
I thought i was ready. But now, im not so sure.
I miss having that secret that was mine to share with people i trusted, now everyone knows and i dont feel like its personal anymore. I dont know if i actually am ready to be out (too late now) I mean, there is still so much about myself i need to be comfortable with. Im still not 100% comfortable with this so called 'special' difference i have...
Sure i havent had any single bit of homophobia thrown at me... but still.
Does anyone else feel like this?
Maybe i should just be less open about my sexuality? Maybe just not talk about it with people? until i can be comfortable...
I wish i could 'IN' myself.
I miss those days so bad.