Five Things of Today

starsxfallxup's picture

1. I should be working on my Biology ISU that is due on Monday. I have to make a model of a human heart. We could do anything we wanted as long as it was related to the course, but I chose the heart (the hardest thing you could possibly do) because it's my favourite and I love it.

2. This girl is going to be the end of me. I have had enough of her hot and cold shit. But as mad as I am and as much as I know she is the one in the wrong, the thought of her not being mine makes me want to cry. And I never cry.

3. Nikki says I should get mad at her. Super mad. And tell her everything that I'm thinking. Because, in reality, she is screwing me over. And being a total asshole. In my mind I know this. In my mind I am mad, but in my heart I'm sad. And apparently I'm listening to my heart today.

4. I really want to go to Chapters today. Ever since I discovered that they put a new "Gay and Lesbian Studies" section in Chapters, I have been going a lot more. It's a really small section, but still. It's a step forward.

5. I should go now. My day is going to go like this:
Take a shower
Go to Chapters
Make a card for F's birthday
Go to F's party
Hopefully Vic will be at F's party because oh em gee she is so cute. I just want to curl up in her lap and wrap my arms around her neck whenever I see her. mmm *sigh*

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WantsOut's picture

Lovestruck fool. Huh? Oh,

Lovestruck fool. Huh? Oh, sorry, talking to myself.

GOOD LUCK WITH ALL THAT!!

Written lovingly for you, yes, ONLY you,

WantsOut

bulldyke's picture

i know EXACTLY what you

i know EXACTLY what you mean. well, my version, anyway. sadly...no sage advice. :) sorry...

but yeah, good luck with it all. anger can be good, but not all the time. it's hard letting people go, even when we should...*hug*

Bulldyke
Other men said they have seen angels,
But I have seen thee
And thou art enough.
~ G. Moore ~

starsxfallxup's picture

gah what this girl did was

gah what this girl did was so unfair and mean
she's an ass
I should've been mad like a month and a half ago =\

gaynow's picture

Argh, girls can be horrible

Argh, girls can be horrible =( what did she do to you? I've got, unfortunately, some experience with being strung along and led on by a girl who turns out to just be... a bitch. Well, regardless, listen to what you're feeling. It's not "too late" to be angry at her; if you're angry at her now, it's how you feel, and you should let her know. You're absolutely entitled to changes in emotions, and to taking your time arriving at your feelings. You feel it, it's right, and she's gotta deal. Anyway, good luck, shoot me a PM if there's any way I can help. Cheers!

Megan: "Cheers are supposed to be simple, make people feel good."
Graham: "Cheers make girls do stupid cartwheels. Orgasms make people feel good."
-But I'm a Cheerleader

starsxfallxup's picture

Essentially, she led me on.

Essentially, she led me on. Not once, but twice. Over the span of three months now. Because I was stupid enough to let myself be led on.

gaynow's picture

=( Oh darling, I'm sorry.

=(
Oh darling, I'm sorry. That sucks a LOT. Is she at all apologetic/repentant?

Megan: "Cheers are supposed to be simple, make people feel good."
Graham: "Cheers make girls do stupid cartwheels. Orgasms make people feel good."
-But I'm a Cheerleader