so tomorrow i have a few choices to make. should i go mt biking w/ a friend who is driving up from portland to rip it up on seattle's best trails, or should i stay back here @ home in the middle of nowhere and go to the center w/ that friend who i finally came out to like four weeks back. I told C i would go to the center w/ him and get the pride foundation/ gsba apps for scholarships, but i am conflicted. I've been wanting to ride w/ R for months now, and i mean, he's coming up w/ the portland posse to shred the trails we built last summer! sooo conflicted on this one. and the big news in the last two weeks is i got sponsored by a huge, international mtb company and smith optics to ride for them in '09!
I dunno what I'm gonna do yet. I'd feel hella bad about not riding w/ R and crew, but the same would go for not going to the center w/ C! ahh, life is soooo confusing and full of conflicts! fuck! and work may end out getting in the way of that sponsership, which is huge for me too! dammit!