So, after coming out to chris last week, which was totally a relief, although it has created some stress over teh last week, i feel good about that decision. he has, however, re-interested me in applying for scholarship applications for pride. i feel liek i may have a chance at it, and i also want to put in the diversity section of my UW app that i am gay, and in fact, being a homosexual has changed my views on prejudices that i have had in the past, judging others before I really knwo them, and that sort of thing.
I JUST don't know about it yet though. the deadline for my UW app is in a week, and i haven't even started on the essayt section. some people have given me advice on what i should write it on, but i feel that living on my own for the past two years and payign my own bills, and volunteering @ local parks etc won't be the best topics. i dunno.
The thing is, I really do need the money. my mom will be leaving the country soon to teach overseas, and that will leave me on my own for college. problem is, due to my mom's portion of my grandfathers estate, she will also have to file for like 200 grand this year as her gross income, which is nothing like the 4o k a year she normally makes as a teacher. hopefully that will not affect my scholarship apps or my ability to get into the UW on FAFSA. we shall see.
The one positive thing on PRIDE app is that my psychiatrist used to be on the approval board and could probably put in a good word for me. i don't know yet though. i really do want to tell my mom this year as it was my new years resolution, but i feel it is always such an awkward topic.
I DO think that mentioning my sexual orientation WILL affect my application as a student to the UW in a positive way, but I also feel it will hugely affect my life in the next year, and over the years to come.
what do you guys think i should do? I also wanted to write about PTSD and overcoming my depression as an issue i have overcome, but instead, my mom suggested that i need to write about overcoming my struggle w/ diabetes or something like that.
gaahhh, soo much shit to think about. why do they have to make gettign an education so damn hard?!?!?!? lol.
thanks for reading and any advice is appreciated.