I feel horrible. This is the worst day that has ever been. I hate this! God, everything is just shit! I can't beleive this is happening, and everything is just falling apart and I don't know what to do. Because I can't do anything. What the hell am I supposed to do? News like this, just dropped, I just don't know how to deal with this. Like, I can push it away and try to put it in a box, but it just keeps coming back. I'm going to cry myself to sleep tonight. I know I will. And it all just sucks, and everything is fucked. I just don't know what to do. And I know haven't actually said why everything is fucked, and everything is falling apart and why htis is the worst day thats ever been. But, it is, and I'm crying, and I don't fucking know what to do.