so...this is weird, and i don't know what causes it.
sometimes, completely out of the blue, i get really, really angry. like, lash out, hurt things/people, want to destroy something angry.
for no reason. i was biking with Em today, and all of a sudden, i had this huge burst of energy, and i HAD to get away from her, because i was about to be incredibly violent. for NO reason. we were just chatting, and joking around and whatever, and it just HIT me.
does this happen to anyone else? i know it's happened to me many times before...but it never really struck me how bad it is sometimes until today.
i get the same way when i have panic attacks (or at least, it's part of it), but more often, it just seems to happen randomly.
today, at least, i was able to walk away for a bit, and get myself under control (and thank you, Em, for not pushing me). but most times it happens, i wind up lashing out at some innocent person, and that just makes me angrier, cause then i feel bad.
so...anyonw have a clue? why it happens, what to do about it? anything at all?